Like pretty much all creative projects, the EP recording and release is taking more time than I had initially expected. I’m accepting this and I’m really enjoying the whole process, so it’s totally okay. However, in my silly timeline, I had somehow imaged that it would be ready by the time I moved to California and that we could combine the release-party with my send-off. When this wasn’t the case, I didn’t even want to perform my songs at all - I didn’t feel confident enough and it felt like the project was still too far from being finished to have anything to say about it… I spent weeks overthinking it and trying to decide what to do until I just thought “You know what, this project is super important to me. Who cares where it actually stands?! And what does it matter if only a handful of people show interest?!”
So as terrified as I was, I just went for it and saw this as an opportunity to grow and learn in my musical journey. I’m SO happy I ended up making that scary decision, because it was one of the best days of my life so far. It was EXACTLY what I needed and gave me the confidence to continue on this journey filled with an enormous amount of questions. So many more people than expected showed up and everyone listened intently (huge shift from the usual “corner of the bar” setup!). The fact that the songs weren’t released yet actually gave the whole event this kinda exclusive vibe that I loved! Weeks later, I’m still in awe of the amount of love and support I felt in that moment. Everyone’s feedback meant so much to me and hearing how some of my stories resonated with others who had been through similar situations made me feel so seen and understood and deepened my relationships with my friends and family.
In the end, I’m really glad things ended up the way they did, because it only is now that I truly have the time and headspace to fully dive into this adventure. I don’t want to rush things and I want to make sure I’m really happy about the result. My new (and realistic goal) is for the EP to be finished by springtime, that way I can have an official little release party at home. I can’t wait!
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